Merdeka

To hate or to feel annoyed about ?
Some people you just dislike. But after some time, you just tend to think about it over and over again. Are they even worth to be thinking about. So , I came up with one good way making all these people disappear from my little mind. Forgive and forget. If they are happy the way they are then let it be. Non of my business. People like that will deserve to be treated as something in return. Karma. Believe or not ?

Good deeds lead you good outcome. I thank all that once did shout at my face, gave me tears, hurt me. Because in return more and more good things are coming to my hands. Slowly , day by day I could feel them coming to me.

Worth ? Maybe not ? Regret ? maybe ? Replacements ?

Questions popping in my mind. Worth or no is based on perception , refer to all the mind. You choose make such decision and you can never end up saying "oh , it's not worth my time/money/feelings/whatsoever." Regret, same goes to that particular word. You don't regret on what you did or done. Look back and use regret as excuses. This powerful word only function when you really mean it . Replacement, you don't replace anyone/anything just with a snap. Sometimes, people/things could not be replaced. Because when it was once at that position , that it is. No replacements. You only have new items/peoples but it's never the same. So no replacements. "never the same" . The feeling is different tho it's the exact same thing. Money can't buy everything in the world. Beware and appreciate what we owned now.

Ta, It's just a sudden strike to my head. Nothing in precise to be pointed at. Just thoughts.

It's merdeka ! "Happy Merdeka" Did you see fireworks? I didn't ! To be honest, I love fireworks. It's amazing how they splash into lights in many patterns. Guess malaysia must have the entire fun in the cities. Unfortunately , I am here in a foreign country. No fireworks.

Holiday , I'm having my term break . How I wish there's a ready plane I could just jump into and fly to Maldives. Have a nice break. Relax along the beach ? How good if there is one .

ta people.
Enjoy

Winter

the candy he got me during exams :D

Cutest boi ever !

<3

The little man that god granted me :D

Best gift ever :D

This year is nailed down to the third year experiencing winter in Australia. But of all, this year is massive cold. Too cold and not bearable. You won't want to walk out from house cause it's freezing ! You can turn into Icy Pole.

Well , life didn't turned out how it supposed to be. Probably it's the expectation that counts on every single thing. A friend tells me that is part of life. You just got to go through that stage and overcome every upcoming obstacles. I agreed and just got to deal with what is coming.

It's simply August now, remembering I was still all alone last year. Everything seems so different now. I have additional in my life. NCS it is. Thank god for granting a person like him. There to look after me when I'm dead sick. At least someone to be there. Tho sometime he can be terrible but never disappoint me with his "i'm so hot" attitude. Very metro sexual and sometimes a little gay. *laughs* Still, got to admit he is being real nice and do heart him.

Birthday , I find August is the season where babies love seeing the world. Just too many birthdays coming up. Not forgetting mine is coming up too :D Well, didn't really thought of it till Mom asked "How you want your birthday to be this year" That was when I realized it's coming up. The parents are being real nice and decided to fly over to give it a celebrate. Couldn't ask for more. Since mr.Ng offered to have everything done then I shall just sit and wait. Second time celebrating with him. Just this time a little different. 21st birthday is the last birthday I would want to come cause time flies and I don't wanna be old.

Oh , the terrible gastric that ended me up in Tropicana Medical Centre is monster. It is horrible cause needles is the last thing I want in my body. It's not awesome to have a night out in the hospital. Well, the pain just strikes and there you go emergency ! Thank god, someone is nice enough to have an extra bed beside me when I'm so knocked out. Doctor says "you need some check ups girl, scope , ultrasounds" Gosh , and blood test. My worst nightmare ! Well, I get the pain again just recently. But being kiamsiap , I refuse going to the emergency cause Australia is always expensive :) Also, no more needles ! big big needles for the whole day is enough to torture me . I will commit suicide for the pain . No one knows better how the pain feels like . Hope my sensitive tummy is going on heal.

I can't wait for the 1st year anni, my 21st birthday ! It all comes together. Can't wait for the big days :D

Have a good day ahead people.

Me love you.

Xxm.

Happy bird

8 months stuck with Ng Chee Siang.

But it was definitely a good one.

This month seems to be great.

At lease he made the effort on organising a dinner.

Or at least he picked out clothes for me?

Maybe a little extra on blue nose bear :D

We walked this far.

Amazing for him !

But yes, he is stuck with this bad me for months.

Maybe I shall treat him a little better.

It's all about the thought you had for me.

The pyjamas to keep me warm at night.

When I am so weak and gets cold so easily.

That really top the romantic list you ever did.

Thank you for every little bit of it.

Me heart you.

Happy 8th months..

signing off,

Xxm.

Winter/Autumn

I am freezing so badly.
It's winter they say.

Guess not the right season for test.
But test still go on.

Urgh.

La, been spending my life with four mens/guys.
How can I not know guys ?
When every movement of theirs are in my finger tips.
Maybe not fully but at least a little.
But it's fun to know how guys act their mini mind out.

Well, been doing heaps work lately.
Maybe i'm just bored of partying.
Never once we stayed till the music stops.
Only when people are in their high conscious mind.

Well,
Hope you have your days filled with smiles :)
Me love you all.

Xxm

Gotten

So nice to see your face again
Tell me how long has it been
Since you've been here
(Since you've been here)
You look so different than before
You're still the person I adore
Frozen with fear
All out of love but I take it from the past
All out of words cause I'm sure it'll never last

I've been saving these last words for one last miracle
But now I'm not sure
I can't save you if you don't let me
You just get me like I've never been gotten before

Maybe it's a bitter wind
That chilled from the pacific rim
That brought you this way
(Brought you my way)
Do not make me think of him
The way he touched your fragile skin
That haunts me every day
I'm out of love but I can't forget the past
I'm out of words but I'm sure it'll never last

lalalala

I had ups and down.

But yea, I'm happy for now :D

The boyfriend did cheered me up !

He and his surprises !!

Me with my studies.

Been trying hard to understand better on these numbers ! ah.

I'm feeling lucky,

Because of my lilies. This time fresh and fresh.

This week is a good rest week . Hehe

Let the pictures do the talking :D

Me <3

On V day .

Woops, ain't that 2 months ago?

lalala~

My 1st surprise

him holding it

sexy :D

<3

The first shot both of us had.

The guys :D

taken on left available on right !

Sister !

Flaming tequilla (orange)

I swear it tasted so good !

not lemon but orange !

The bunch of brothers :)

My 2nd surprise :)

Toodles people.

Have a nice day :D

Xxm.

Dont mess with me

If you are too free to buttock yourself in.

You're gonna be messing with me.

I will do the same as you do.

So you know what to do.

My territory is not your business to step in.

Out you go be on the streets !

ta.

Xxm