.

There's nobody I can go to anymore.

To open up my heart with.

Not anymore.

Old times

I am gonna be a bride !

Last year just went by like that ! I still remember me sitting in Nobu with popo having our dinner. It was all awkward and shy. Only the four of us in the room. It went out nice. Which I am very thankful of. I wish this year will be a better blast ! Additional of my parents :)

The four of us !

A year just passed by !

Meeee !!!

I miss home :(

The new bollywood star

My medals are in my toilet !

Prettiest flowers I ever received

oppps!

Bang bang bang !!

My lovely mother !

It was then the photoshoots and ads. Standing infront of cameras is what we do. Pictures ! all these are times we spent together. With the crews, make ups, picking outfits. Those are fun things to do. You get to play along while working. I missed those days. I missed the crews that i've worked for few years. It's amazing throughout the process. Young and fun !

We were so young !

Our time together

Happy team !!!!

Sabrina Loh Pei Yee

Moments

This chapter of life was all about friends. About starting a new life in a whole new foreign world. It's different and somehow I was scared. Because everything is by my own. You don't drive, you walk. You don't wear shorts, but jeans. You don't go uni, you get warning letters. It's so different ! Tram and train ! which I don't even take in Malaysia. Now, here you take every public transport . You get what you see, ride which comes by ! You get friends from other countries, all freedom is granted ! Everything is free to do ! you have house parties, beers jokes. I don't get that in Malaysia. A different phrase of life. I'm glad it's all over and ready for the next phrase. Your friends come and go . Some stay some BYE !

The trinity Year ! so much fun back then !

Shereen and Michele !

Our girls night out in Singapore. I missed those trip but not Bencoolen !haha

I'm heaviest !60kg ! in my life !

*kisses* just for charlize !

Uncle Peter and her two lovely daughters !

Days in high school is really unbeatable. Because we are all naive and has got nothing to be unhappy about. Maybe exclude the fights and backstabbing . That's how high school life is. I enjoyed mine alot ! First was participating Student Council. Second, joined cheerleading and formed Queens. Not forgetting my Red House days. Every event was joyful yet tired. You just go around everywhere and have alot effort in it. Student council we had our IFF day, The King and I, sports carnival and our Prom Night. All that experience is as if you handle an event company, your team just got to sit along and plan and make everything successful. Feeling achievable when your event turned out right ! Being a cheerleader is another painful process. It was hard to persuade your team. You get problems also handle your girls. It was really tiring for me but it was worth it. Red house, all our effort is worth when you're announced Champion of almost everything. That's the only event where you get everyone's support. If there's a chance I wouldn't mind experiencing it again !

The bff's I truly love !! Best ones !!

It was coincidence wearing all white that day ! i guess?

Student council? haha

lonely life back then !!

Most memorable day in high school! I meant it !

Nothing can beat this day !

Do you believe Im a runner ?

21st birthday is coming up. Look at the cakes I've got for the previous years. It really does remind me of my past birthdays. Every birthday was really memorable. Every year 14th September is the day I awaits. But this year doesn't seem to have those very awaiting feeling. Guess, not yet. As we grow up , more and more problems tend to occur and you will have to figure more problems. 21 years of thinking. Gosh, did time really went by just with a snap ? Once you cross 21st birthday , you tend to grow old without notices. I really hate that ! Slowly, everything changes even faster ! So, catch your memories and keep them in your hard drive !

Happy Birthday Cynthia ! have a great one ya babe !!

19th birthday cake sponsored by euvin !

Guess it's the biggest cake i ever received !!

Special and surprise cake from my lovely popo.

I really loved it and it's amazing :D

The most expensive cake ! tho it's simple but it worth alot to me.

The hand made cake by Apple Chai !

16th birthday . How sweeett ! But this cake is real yumsss !

I know this is a long post. Just in the mood. Lalalala. I'm lazy . Enjoy the cakes .
Love !

Xxm.

Merdeka

To hate or to feel annoyed about ?
Some people you just dislike. But after some time, you just tend to think about it over and over again. Are they even worth to be thinking about. So , I came up with one good way making all these people disappear from my little mind. Forgive and forget. If they are happy the way they are then let it be. Non of my business. People like that will deserve to be treated as something in return. Karma. Believe or not ?

Good deeds lead you good outcome. I thank all that once did shout at my face, gave me tears, hurt me. Because in return more and more good things are coming to my hands. Slowly , day by day I could feel them coming to me.

Worth ? Maybe not ? Regret ? maybe ? Replacements ?

Questions popping in my mind. Worth or no is based on perception , refer to all the mind. You choose make such decision and you can never end up saying "oh , it's not worth my time/money/feelings/whatsoever." Regret, same goes to that particular word. You don't regret on what you did or done. Look back and use regret as excuses. This powerful word only function when you really mean it . Replacement, you don't replace anyone/anything just with a snap. Sometimes, people/things could not be replaced. Because when it was once at that position , that it is. No replacements. You only have new items/peoples but it's never the same. So no replacements. "never the same" . The feeling is different tho it's the exact same thing. Money can't buy everything in the world. Beware and appreciate what we owned now.

Ta, It's just a sudden strike to my head. Nothing in precise to be pointed at. Just thoughts.

It's merdeka ! "Happy Merdeka" Did you see fireworks? I didn't ! To be honest, I love fireworks. It's amazing how they splash into lights in many patterns. Guess malaysia must have the entire fun in the cities. Unfortunately , I am here in a foreign country. No fireworks.

Holiday , I'm having my term break . How I wish there's a ready plane I could just jump into and fly to Maldives. Have a nice break. Relax along the beach ? How good if there is one .

ta people.
Enjoy

Winter

the candy he got me during exams :D

Cutest boi ever !

<3

The little man that god granted me :D

Best gift ever :D

This year is nailed down to the third year experiencing winter in Australia. But of all, this year is massive cold. Too cold and not bearable. You won't want to walk out from house cause it's freezing ! You can turn into Icy Pole.

Well , life didn't turned out how it supposed to be. Probably it's the expectation that counts on every single thing. A friend tells me that is part of life. You just got to go through that stage and overcome every upcoming obstacles. I agreed and just got to deal with what is coming.

It's simply August now, remembering I was still all alone last year. Everything seems so different now. I have additional in my life. NCS it is. Thank god for granting a person like him. There to look after me when I'm dead sick. At least someone to be there. Tho sometime he can be terrible but never disappoint me with his "i'm so hot" attitude. Very metro sexual and sometimes a little gay. *laughs* Still, got to admit he is being real nice and do heart him.

Birthday , I find August is the season where babies love seeing the world. Just too many birthdays coming up. Not forgetting mine is coming up too :D Well, didn't really thought of it till Mom asked "How you want your birthday to be this year" That was when I realized it's coming up. The parents are being real nice and decided to fly over to give it a celebrate. Couldn't ask for more. Since mr.Ng offered to have everything done then I shall just sit and wait. Second time celebrating with him. Just this time a little different. 21st birthday is the last birthday I would want to come cause time flies and I don't wanna be old.

Oh , the terrible gastric that ended me up in Tropicana Medical Centre is monster. It is horrible cause needles is the last thing I want in my body. It's not awesome to have a night out in the hospital. Well, the pain just strikes and there you go emergency ! Thank god, someone is nice enough to have an extra bed beside me when I'm so knocked out. Doctor says "you need some check ups girl, scope , ultrasounds" Gosh , and blood test. My worst nightmare ! Well, I get the pain again just recently. But being kiamsiap , I refuse going to the emergency cause Australia is always expensive :) Also, no more needles ! big big needles for the whole day is enough to torture me . I will commit suicide for the pain . No one knows better how the pain feels like . Hope my sensitive tummy is going on heal.

I can't wait for the 1st year anni, my 21st birthday ! It all comes together. Can't wait for the big days :D

Have a good day ahead people.

Me love you.

Xxm.

Happy bird

8 months stuck with Ng Chee Siang.

But it was definitely a good one.

This month seems to be great.

At lease he made the effort on organising a dinner.

Or at least he picked out clothes for me?

Maybe a little extra on blue nose bear :D

We walked this far.

Amazing for him !

But yes, he is stuck with this bad me for months.

Maybe I shall treat him a little better.

It's all about the thought you had for me.

The pyjamas to keep me warm at night.

When I am so weak and gets cold so easily.

That really top the romantic list you ever did.

Thank you for every little bit of it.

Me heart you.

Happy 8th months..

signing off,

Xxm.

Winter/Autumn

I am freezing so badly.
It's winter they say.

Guess not the right season for test.
But test still go on.

Urgh.

La, been spending my life with four mens/guys.
How can I not know guys ?
When every movement of theirs are in my finger tips.
Maybe not fully but at least a little.
But it's fun to know how guys act their mini mind out.

Well, been doing heaps work lately.
Maybe i'm just bored of partying.
Never once we stayed till the music stops.
Only when people are in their high conscious mind.

Well,
Hope you have your days filled with smiles :)
Me love you all.

Xxm

Gotten

So nice to see your face again
Tell me how long has it been
Since you've been here
(Since you've been here)
You look so different than before
You're still the person I adore
Frozen with fear
All out of love but I take it from the past
All out of words cause I'm sure it'll never last

I've been saving these last words for one last miracle
But now I'm not sure
I can't save you if you don't let me
You just get me like I've never been gotten before

Maybe it's a bitter wind
That chilled from the pacific rim
That brought you this way
(Brought you my way)
Do not make me think of him
The way he touched your fragile skin
That haunts me every day
I'm out of love but I can't forget the past
I'm out of words but I'm sure it'll never last